Breaking Down to Build Back Up
Here Jolly describes her first day in the processing building that Sugg calls, “The Fish Den”. The space is dark, wet, cold and filled with loss. Instantly Jolly feels uncomfortable in this space. The room spins, she is nauseous and feels way out of her element. This space takes over her senses and breaks her down completely, but she chooses to stay and allows it to reveal parts of herself that no longer serve her. One of them is judgment.
This is an earlier exchange with Sugg where there is no trust, warmth, or connection between them that leads to a subtle recognition that there is more to Sugg than first perceived. Just like her first look at the fish den; cold, wet, and full of loss can be reframed to a place that is responsible for feeding and nourishing a community of people. A thought that can instantly transform her experience and be a reminder that a lot our fears are self-induced potentially locking up parts of ourselves we have yet to discover. She is also recognizing how important perspective is, it can free you.