Surrender to Remember

I first noticed the wind in a new way on a hike in Jasper National Park a few years ago. I was at a fairly high altitude in an ecosystem that looks entirely different than the forests I am familiar with in Ontario. I remember hearing a faint rustling noise causing me to stop and turn around, almost like it wanted me to notice. I listened as it gently crept closer through the thick forest until it reached me and continued on its way toward the summit. It was a moment I won’t forget. It helped me understand that there is a lot more knowledge that surrounds us that is accessible if we choose to surrender.

Resisting is a collective impulse that has been passed down generationally, sweeping under the rug intense trauma our family/ancestors may have experienced. Resisting is the balloon Jolly keeps hold of in the novel. A balloon that can be let go of at anytime but she keeps hold of it remaining stuck in survival mode.

Leading traits that contribute to a person living in survival mode are: shame, fear, anger and guilt. Most times when someone is living their life in this paradigm, it can be automatically passed down before a person has a chance to experience higher vibrations first like: joy, peace, creativity, courage and love. That is why it is so difficult to comprehend that you may actually be living in survival mode. The balloon tied around your wrist is all you know. The pile under the rug doesn’t go away, even after someone has crossed over. It lives on and builds until it is noticed, understood, held, loved and cleared with compassion.

Jolly is beginning to understand the difference of this feeling and with awareness starts to unravel it. She calls this a “pain cloud”. You can’t see it, but you can feel it, and in a non-resisting (letting go) space, something inside this new calm environment holds her clue.